Bleh

I figured when I started this blog that I would have tons to write about. I guess if I were an outsider looking in on the events of my life, I could find things here and there to blog about; but I find myself burdened with the thought of writing.

Right now we are in the process of finding jobs and it is proving to be more dificult than we thought. I figured, "I'm smart, nice, educated and seemingly well-spoken. This whole job search thing will be a piece of cake." Boy, was I wrong. It's stressful. There appears to be no correlation between the number of applications submitted and likelihood of landing an interview. I've been forced to grow up really quickly and realize that necessity of a career will not always lead to happiness. I always considered myself a very hard worker and someone who would be compensated for such. However, jobs in Oklahoma do not pay the same as in Birmingham. I've had to reconsider my thoughts on the difference in value and self-worth. On my dark days the two are very much so intertwined. I end up feeling that because my job in Birmingham paid more, that here I am simply worth less (read: worthless). It's a hard pill to swallow. I have to pul myself out of those thoughts and come to the much happier conclusion that I now have the opportunity to prove my worth. I am excited about this. I love being able to prove to others that I am more than what they first thought.

On a semi-unrelated note: I consider myself a faithful person. I have grown so much in my beliefs in the past few years. I feel like I have truly been able to break free from the idea that I believe in things simply because that is what my parents believed. I think attending Samford really helped me out in that aspect. I was able to listen to lectures about Christianity and Theology and truly question and find out for myself what it means to be a Christian. You will find no riveting testimony here; nor will you find a daily devotional meant to spur anyone into martyrdom. I am simply someone who knows what she believes and chooses to be a steward of Christianity through treating others in as Christ-like an attitude as I am able.

I hope this allows those who may not know me as well as others to find out a little more about me. I expect this newest chapter in mine and Austin's life to spark even more changes and growth. I'm pretty excited.